30 Day Challenge: Days 7, 8, & 9

So this challenge thing isn’t going so well.

I thought I’d do little things and be able to track my progress. If anything, I’ve regressed. (Or is it transgressed? A year later, I don’t remember the difference between transgressive and regressive sequences).

I did do something I never thought I’d do, however, and that is to make an appointment with a rape counselor. It’s next week, and I have no idea what to expect. I just know that what I’m doing simply isn’t working.  I almost feel like I’m giving up, no, I do feel that I’m giving up.  I’m still dealing with a lot of residual stuff in addition to this apathy that overwhelms me on most days.

But anyway, there it is.

On the bright side, I’m reading Aldous Huxley’s Perennial Philosophy. Fantastic stuff.


3 thoughts on “30 Day Challenge: Days 7, 8, & 9”

  1. Try not to fret in advance (easy to suggest, not easy to do, I know!). However it works FOR you, let it happen. You are doing everything the way you should.

    🙂 Shu


  2. Yea YOU! As long as you keep going forward after any little steps back, it is considered progress. Everytime you think about beating yourself up on those setbacks, forgive yourself and get back on the path. ESTD – easier said than done but it’s a thinking game and realization thing and I know it is tough. You’ve got cheerleaders here.


  3. ((( L.F. )))

    Believe it or not, my experience with certain types of ‘giving up” has led to some pretty amazing breakthroughs.

    I think it’s awesome you’re going to the counselling. Good girl!


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